RECOVERY LEGAL PLAN:

We Will Refund Your Misery

       The story alleged here, took place in upper New York State. I knowing the 12 step group conscience, and infra structure,of some of its groups, would like to see, the ramifications for these acts, kept within the confines of the area in which it happened. To see the events which happened to me, go unresolved in a Court of law, is a travesty, and only worsens all Recovery, for everyone.

         This is a direct and, in perspective of the way it was put, became very profound quote, stated to me, by a 12 step member, in front of witnesses, during a practice meeting, which I chaired, at a drug and alcohol rehab unit, in a hospital. The 12 step slogan, goes something approximately like this: You may leave and have your misery refunded. The term MISERY, in this 12 step instance, is an adaptation of the word. It is a state of mind, relegated to dry drunks, or people on the wagon, free from drink or drug, but without benefit of program. Those types are seen as miserable people. MISERABLE: Continuing to do the same things, while expecting different results. This in some 12 step oriented communities, or in 12 step ideology, leads to anger, resentment – which is derived from the word reseter. From what I was told, reseter means to reset; to reset anger which, to push the anger button, it will have you out there using again. Which, in their terms means, for certain, death, jail, or other institution. We are told that over and over. There are constant references in all 12 step Recovery literature stating that this is the actual reality, the actual living space, that our minds, are left with, that we have to be stuck in after we get clean. The way my speaker twisted the words of the 12 step slogan, about “our misery being refunded to us”, to “We will refund your misery” was a very real threat, and the mind set or actual group conscience of most 12 steppers, and sympathizers. The rationale being, that the 12 steps saved our lives, and no one dare try to state anything else.

            I, after living through two major fires in my building, realized that the firemen saved my life, it doesn’t mean that I have to become a fireman. They, the 12 steppers, are told that you or I, have to pay back society, for all our wrongs, rather than doing things when and if you can, for the advancement of, others in society, rather than some unwritten mandatory payback, or else our, or my misery will be refunded. Small terms like the one described above is, exactly what was programmed into my psyche, sentence by sentence. It, my way of thinking about the 12 step organizations, started first at meetings, and was continued in a hospital Rehab. at a time when my guard was down, during a time when I was weakened, suffering from long term withdrawal, and in pain after being deprived of sleep for quite some time, and is the beginning of my indoctrination into the whole dogma, rhetoric, and party line, which goes with the 12 steps, as being the bottom and only line in human and addictive behavior.

            As an organization each group is allowed to govern itself, setting some basic policies, but the 12 steps themselves, never change. The program is taught to everyone, so it becomes the only point of reference which, now that I was sober, had to relate to. We most of us learn to Identify with this completely. The rest of life is out there, swirling all around the 12 step groups. We partake of the elements of life. It goes along with the territory of being an addict. The 12 steps have been the mainstay of treatment, at least in the particular town where I lived, for over 50 years, and of course, even in my family, the 12 steps had for a long time, been looked at with respect, as a kind benevolent helping gentle organization. I basically knew that, I like others went into Rehab thoroughly weakened, which of course I did take the credit for. I hadn't yet given myself credit for getting clean on my own, and I hadn't really taken the time to examine the methods of harassment used in this town and county in order to literally harass me into a Rehab.

           The thought of the 12 steps being a CULT and acting the way other notorious other cults do, hadn't occurred to me. The dictionary defines a cult as: CULT> noun 1 a system of religious worship directed towards a particular figure or object, as in the cult of Apollo. 2. a small religious group regarded as strange or as imposing excessive control over members. 3. something popular or fashionable among a particular section of society

            The definition of a religion is: religion> noun 1. the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods. 2. A particular system of faith and worship 3. A pursuit or interest followed with devotion. The line between a religion and cult seems to be a very thin one.

            Finally, as I grew away from all the 12 steps, I was forced to wake up, and realize that I was actually fighting for my life, and health, against a therapeutically based and organized, and connected group of therapeutic program designing terrorists, a therapeutic “Star Chamber”, if you will, and against the religious and politically connected 12 steps comprised of 12 steppers, and their connections to, and in the supportive services areas, which operate for the “dollar profit”, but depend on Federal funds and contracts with Federal or State agencies, to receive such Federal monies. Contracts, earn these people their bread and butter, it pays the rent and vacation, and they are greedy, with that image to uphold and protect. This includes hospitals, and a community of therapists, which treat the addict, who depend on those outside agencies, to survive, and who have to have, service contracts with government agencies in order to collect monies as service providers. These are places like churches, hospitals, doctors, therapists, drug Rehabs, aftercare centers, and shelters, even prisons.

            Before my entrance to drug Rehab I had been dealing with some of these therapists in one form or another for years, the least of which, was a clinical psychologist, a Phd. who, I saw in person for smoking cessation hypnosis weekly and used his instructional, hypnosis tape recordings, complete with post hypnotic suggestions, at home, between sessions; in an effort to give up smoking, and I had to let some acquaintances listen to this and be privy to this fact. I believe they are tied in with the hospital Rehab through several areas, and took part in the actual campaign which I am in the process of writing about. Smoking, even at that time had, given me extremely serious health problems. Life threatening problems to be exact. Self hypnosis tapes, like any other relaxation, or post hypnotic suggestion tape is supposed to be used or administered by a competent therapist, with consent and a licence, in their office, with competent direction . These people are supposed to act in a responsible manner, and for some insane reason, maybe it has to do with the kind of medical personnel I was familiar with as a child. I just took it for granted that they all should be above reproach.

            Some of the other therapists in my general community were what I felt were, clinical pill pushers, and who also had affiliations with such 12 step oriented Rehabs and aftercare programs, some of whose methods have been questionable, and legally questioned for years, and who in a small community, are on staff at different hospitals, and are definitely connected to the drug Rehab business community, and who are, at the least, familiar with each other, if not actually doing business together. It was during the time that I was in this level of treatment that, trouble began for me.

            Several therapists in my community had gone through their own legal battles, with each other and with the powers that be, in the community, who oversaw most of the supportive services, which I have previously mentioned.. One clinic was closed down, and several of those therapists stayed in the community. I, during the time that I was getting clean, found my way to one of these contracted service providers, for the therapy and smoking cessation hypnosis. I noticed a connection between some of my therapists patients, the rooms of AA, and an insecure premises for therapy, where almost anyone could walk in off the street and listen at the door. Building staff, which included the doormen and maintenance, could listen at his other door. His office partner used to sit in the restaurant where we all congregated, and listened to us plot, argue and scheme. The trouble at first almost always seemed connected with the therapists, and the building that I lived in, with maintenance being the cause. Now I just couldn’t say that my building maintenance was giving me problems, alone. It was as if the events which were going on between me and the maintenance at my building was passed to my therapist’s office. If a repairman was fixing my apartment door, I’d arrive at therapy, to find my therapist, standing with his maintenance fixing his door. This was nothing radical at least at first, just something to be chalked up to coincidence, and it irked me. Something didn’t feel right about it, but nothing to base any legal action what so ever, on. It seemed like landlord harassment, and complicity betweeen building maintenance and the therapist, and I complained, to the building agent. All I had was my gut instinct. Things like this continued, and as I voiced my opinion or related to my therapist that this was going on, he seemed more smug about it rather than indignant, or angry, or even sympathetic.

            Other patients of his were having similar experiences to mine. Only they had those experiences before I did. One of them, used to hear sounds coming from in between the walls, and he would swear someone had or was, entering his room moving things around. We, his friends or acquaintances, considered this nonsense at the time. Another of his patients, living at a different location, swore that someone entered their apartment, frequently, moved items around or even damaged personal belongings, of theirs, as did he. Not one of us made any sense of it either. Why, because we were on drugs, period, and used to being hustled around and hustling around by therapists. They were doctors. This is part of, what I believe is part of, a building maintenance technique, for harassment, whether it is on their own, or as part of something larger.

            Similar things started happening to me, in the same vein, which also made me wonder exactly how long this had been going on. Did everything that I misplaced in my apartment during the past few years have its root causes in all of this? This is the beginnings, to start doubt, in your own powers of reason and observation. Coincidently, later in my recovery, my sponsor who is a property owner told me that they, have ways of harassing tenants.

           Electronic technology has gone even farther today, in the methods for delivery of subliminal messages, even farther than a therapist, could perpetrate, with electronic media being the means. Noise levels don’t have to be loud to annoy neighbors. One doesn’t have to come home to, hear music blasting from a neighbor’s apartment which they can’t stand, in order to be or feel harassed. Sound technology, as used today, now, can even allow for people to harass and extract revenge at long distances, and it can almost become imperceptible, and difficult to identify and catch. It can almost be below the auditory range of normal hearing. With a true subliminal it can be hidden outside the range of auditory perceptions, behind music, or most any sound.

            Almost everyone has seen smoking cessation tapes, or personal empowerment tapes sold in your local health conscious stores, or has heard of large department stores using subliminal messages to prevent shoplifting, or using subliminal messages in theaters to sell candy and pop corn, or even in a Presidential race.

             Later on, I found this type of thing was not relegated to the small community, or even the small therapeutic community in which I lived. A brief look into Non-Lethal technology, sound technology, sleep hypnosis, and brainwashing, plus some personal experience and knowledge of digital electronics gave me, some small answers, on this, and what was happening to me. How, as a person sleeps, he or she can be told what to say or do, or even what they should think about or feel. To make it simple an individual can be told what images to see or fantasize about during daydreams, maybe even the time of day to close their eyes and think. To moderate behavior, against our will, or without our knowledge. People, as most parents find out, can be talked to or questioned during their sleep. A person’s free associations can be changed. If a person will not, or can’t be forced to do something which isn’t in his nature, or which is against his will. It is possible to change his will or free associations. This doesn’t have to be done in a doctor’s office. It can be done right through a neighbor’s wall. Now at least I had a starting point, enough to start with in order to be able to put some pieces together, in some sort of logical framework, not only for myself, but because now I have seen too many others who have fallen victim, also. For awhile I stayed pretty much in the areas around where I lived, but grew farther away from the 12 steps. I was beginning to be isolated from the 12 step groups, by friendships with other people, through, some of the group, who I had let listen to some of my therapists tapes, and whose friends, had some dislike of the same therapeutic community, however who, allegedly knew the same group from my drug rehab, hospital. It was here that I started to experience, the effects of this type of sleep hypnosis, and it was done by some of these people, who I at the time, didn’t know knew each other. I hadn’t figured that this had been done on me years earlier. I had been in therapy for years, and had no experience with hypnosis. Who could guess that women use it to chase men, or some cultures might use it to injure or steal apartments, from the elderly. The old methadone heads in the neighborhood had so much bitterness and resentments in their life, and hatred for the 12 steps, and started to die of within a short time of each other that I, never suspected that they were behind a lot of the abuse which happened to me, and disappeared from the area, not dying as rumor had it, leaving all of AA and NA to take the full blame.

              I started to use an alternative method of Recovery, because of bad feelings between myself and the 12 steps, partially because of the affiliations with these people, and harassment at every meeting, and enrolled in adult education received a GED, and decided to go to work, and went on to college, without making a lot of the 12 step meetings. All the time not being aware that a member of my Drug Rehab Hospital, staff, from another unit had, moved into my building into the apartment below me. That individual was an employee from a, sleep deprivation and research unit. She appears to be the link between a lot of those groups mentioned previously.

            What you are reading here is, a story, centered around me and my relationship to, this abusive 12 step oriented, therapeutic, institutional, and educational community connected together, with each other. I’ll say this just for any legalities which might arise, that the statements, which I have made here are allegations, they all allegedly happened. The story here is, not unlike many others, some of which became Federal Court cases, some of which, started in Federal Correctional Institutions, and have been used to set precedent, in Federal Courts around the United States. These winning Federal cases are about, such coercive, and abusive methods used by agencies connected to many supportive services. Prisons believe it or not are, supportive services of a sort, which violate human and civil rights, surrounding the questionable if not illegal methods of harassment and forced participation, used by this type of a 12 step recovery oriented, community. Prison is a familiar place to many recovering alcoholics and addicts. Even though other people were involved in this harassment campaign they, almost all, were connected to this community, some resented being hustled around and hustling for this community.

 Alternative Methods of Recovery, have been picked apart, by supporters of the 12 steps and I have seen one founder branded a megalomaniac for branding the 12 steps in the manner that he has.

             I am experiencing most of what he has written about first hand, now, and it has been an ongoing, connected politically connected process, for years. To most it would seem that what is happening now to me has no relation to the original harassment, twenty miles and ten years ago, and away. It does, though, directly. If something happens to me I want the connections shown and action taken.

              People, I have found, seem to think that AA and NA are organizations that are filled with businessmen or people who go out on a Friday to Friday bender and whose work suffers so much that they have to go to, or end up in AA or NA. It’s about excesses, of the human equation, taken by individuals to the max, sometimes. This behavior pervades every strata of society, and it is very similar type of behavior, from the sleazball junkie, sex freak prostitute, and pimp, to the highest areas of show business and even in to the halls of Congress, where meetings are held in the Capital rotunda.

           The 12 step’s message is also carried into prisons, and according to an alternative method of recovery’s literature, the, then Attorney General of the state, didn’t like these alternative methods of recovery, and their Federal Court cases were upsetting his office’s applecart. The fact of the matter is also, that, many of the staff members of, participating social agencies, surrounding the poor and the addicted are, active users now also, of some sort themselves, but who, for whatever reasons, take on the responsibility for engaging in, coercive almost covert therapeutic methods, by that I mean psychiatric methods, not therapy, but mind games meant to cause emotional distress. By this I mean, using deliberate acts, usually based on personality profiles gathered over the years, from different areas, including law enforcement records, psycho-therapists, educational records and, even a 12 step program’s, fourth and fifth step or written, and read life story, from which law enforcement, or anyone in or near a human resources, or social services line of businesses, allegedly may try to gather evidence, or pass along evidence or information illegally, on past activities, or associates, to be used in a personal terrorization program designed and tailor made just for that individual. This type of covert politically connected behavior, which I naively thought would be curtailed after the Nixon years, and is worse than dirty politics, would and can be done without: proper written authority, signed release forms, written or verbal consent, search warrants or Miranda rights being observed. This would be done in order to trigger negative responses, or to cause someone to act out in anger or confusion, to force an action based on emotional duress, which might put someone in an illegal situation, a situation which they ordinarily wouldn’t have participated in, under ordinary circumstances. In plain English, a set up, with many modes used to attack, a personality in order to force errant ex - 12 steppers, back to, some sort of servitude to, and to force others into this form of institutional servitude to: 12 step oriented recovery, or if someone won’t go back or who might wish to engage in whistle blowing, to, cause them to use again, which to my way of thinking and their own literature means death when they use. To my way of thinking, this is tantamount to attempted murder. This might be as simple as a counselor suggesting or telling someone to work off the books, which can at the least be used for blackmail, or traded upon to law enforcement by that same counselor for any slight or imagined insult. This is another part of this connected hook up, between them all, Information gathering. Why? Because we were engaged in anti social acts, once. Some more heinous than others, and no matter what need to be kept in line.

            In my case now it is because I am aligned with only alternative methods of recovery and have, now made it a point to present to the public all the garbage which goes on in this arena. I also noticed around the same time that some of my other friends in recovery, who I recommended to my therapists, were in some trouble, and it came from some of the same areas of therapeutic harassment, which I have just previously mentioned. It came according to several sources, after they threatened to report a child abuse case, to a child protective agency. To be a little more succinct, these continued deliberate acts of harassment are meant to, cause rises and falls in one’s emotions. To cause them to think and act irrationally. The emotional highs and lows, which most 12 steppers, have been taught to look at as, bad for them, or something to monitor, lest they use again. There is an old saying in the 12 step organizations, it is pounded into you early on. It is that you, yourself, set yourself up to use again weeks before you do.

            Many people who do use again don’t come back, literally. I and others are of the opinion that it is in part, the way the 12 step literature is worded itself and is also a contributing factor, which is programmed into you, from the very beginning and tells you that if you leave us, the 12 steps, you are doomed to use again, and if you use, you are doomed to life in an institution, or death, and the obstinate beliefs of the 12 steppers themselves, and of course the surrounding community who treats these people for profit, and their sympathizers in public employ in those areas.

The dangers in using today are self evident., The dangers of the general public, going unawares that this goes is even more evident and dangerous.

             So many of us believe today, that it is the group who sets you up, just by programming you to, believe that way at first. All that is needed are the triggers, and pressure applied from within and without this 12 step oriented kind of community, and to be honest about it, any kind of community. With a new unexpected twist being added, which involves an actual network, much like any other ordinary network, who can pick up a phone, or two way communications devise, like the police department, or any number of security guard companies two way, hand help broadcasting devices, commonly know as walkie-talkies, to communicate miles away from where a person originally lived. This all centers around those social services, and supportive services areas, surrounding Recovery, plus the twelve steppers themselves.

This is the basic theory or premise, which I am basing my allegations on and, These are part of, the acts of:

Refunding Your Misery !

          In order for me to be able to describe exactly what happened to me, and make it more clear to the public than just some words on paper; I first, found it necessary to point out exactly who was where, and who did what. To be able to define who, “THEY” were.

         If mind control exists, as stated by Charles Buffe, in “Alcoholics Anonymous – Cult or Cure”, in relation to the 12 steps, and I believe it does, I have come to the opinion that the Webster’s dictionary definition alone, defines the parameters of what the 12 step business organizations, with their surrounding service communities are, a CULT in every sense of the word. I also know now, after listening to many angry individuals, that before speaking out, against a very large, politically connected community like this, who operate off the premise of confidentiality, and anonyminity, it is always wise to define exactly who or what you are dealing with, or you might find yourself out on the street, on a soapbox screaming obscenities at everyone, not being able to get a handle on what has gone on behind the scenes. Or why these people would be out to do you physical harm.

          It now becomes good common sense to start to define, and try to chart who they are and to try to back it up with some hard copy evidence. All to often the word “THEY”, in many peoples conversations, and especially people who have or are involved with the addictions treatment community, seems to be synonymous with “GOVERNMENT” or the police department. “The GOVERNMENT” is out to get me. This sounds all to general and paranoid. But even paranoids have enemies, or so they say. So I found it better to be more specific. This for me now, has become a thing to do, an added chore or everyday routine, which shouldn’t be thrust into anyone’s life. Is it the Federal, City, or State government, which is involved, or is it a private group policy. Maybe a combination of both. For people who feel abused, ask yourself that! Exactly which branch, what department, who is the supervisor, where did it happen and how can I document it, in order to prove that I have actually been abused. One slip of a doctors scalpel can kill you. I’ll add one more point of my own, which I feel is the definitive factor, in defining CULT behavior. “THEY”, being a member, or members of the particular group, or groups in question, with ties to the community in question, acting in concert, within each separate community, with ties to other like minded communities, will come after you.

           For the public, however, it might be you, the average citizen who might be able to also see the common sense in a statement, like this and might respond to a request for first hand information based on the events depicted here, in order that justice might be served. A group of therapists word, under a protective cloth of confidentiality, if they chose, probably could and would stand a better chance in a court of law, than your average user or ex users word, at least up front . So if undocumented abuses happen, and no action is taken, or therapists lie, who stands to look the stupidest? Did I say stupidest? The question is here: Who would seem to have the most credibility? This isn’t even taking into account, or giving a motive for their actions. This is just going on the premise that abuses happen, and the medical community will lie about it. In a therapy oriented community, where therapists do enjoy that privilege of confidentiality, each of whom are on staff at many different hospitals, who in a community know each other, who have been in a so called position of responsibility in the community for years, but whose methods border on illegalities, with reputations they do not want tarnished, and who are backed by law enforcement, to a degree, can almost operate in secrecy, to carry out by almost any means, illegal or otherwise, activity which could include injury, break ins, and gross violations of civil rights, all the while acting with the collusion of, most of the health care community at large, not just the anonymous insiders who participate in the 12 step loony bin, where over the years the loonies actually got to take over and run the whole asylum, and with their nasty attitudes run it this way. If this type of behavior does go on, it would turn out to be premeditated and deliberate acts which caused injury at that, and the people singled out for whatever reason, would never new what hit ‘em, because it is all dealt with IN HOUSE, and done over an extended period of time. This is the cloak which these people hide behind, and this is the premise upon which I will base my presentation to you, the general public. ANONYMINITY, and coverup. If it happened to me it can happen to you.

 Over thirty years ago

           At the height of the counter culture revolution, of the 1960's, I heard a psychiatrist chastise a woman, who would not speak out in group therapy. He browbeat her with the argument, that her lack of interest in the group was actually based on the criminal code of omerta (silence). After living through what I consider therapeutic harassment and terrorism, involving staff of that very same place, and their coverup of all the facts about those events, I am pleased to say that this is what this 12 step oriented community was and is about. SILENCE! This type of behavior was and is not exclusive of small towns, local law enforcement, and a good amount of the actual community of therapists, which include ALCOHOL COUNSELORS drawn right from the hard core ranks of the rehabilitated, who worked their way through the ranks, and found their spots in the therapeutic community, and I am of the opinion that if they hadn't found their spots working there they wouldn't be able to be employed anywhere else or by anyone else. This type of group has been known to: include Clinical Psychologists, Psychiatrists, MD's, Dentists, and teachers, and even sociologists who deal with the poor and addicted and, this also includes the kinds of places which house and feed the poor and addicted, and also, the places where 12 steps rent their space, such as churches and church groups . In other words all the groups sympathetic to the 12 step organizations, and who also have seen fit to try and upgrade the lifestyles of.. which is a noble thought, until you look closer at what you are dealing with and methods used. This is the “THEY” and “WHO” SO........

.........HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO FOR YOUR SOBRIETY.........

           This is a common slogan type, phrase used in AA and the Drug Rehab circuit. This question was put to me as I neared my discharge from Rehab. Lack of sobriety wrecked your life and this sobriety is the number one thing in your life now, exactly what would you do to keep this. Will you surrender completely to their version of 12 step teachings?

           The problem for them was that, as it was stated to me, was that I wanted to retain control of my life, as seen in the previous link to my hospital files, and when you check some other links, to alternative methods of recovery, and or recovery 12 step trials, you will see that these act may well fall into the parameter, on which one federal case may be brought. The suggestion was made to me by staff, there and then, for me to give up my apartment, which I had resided in for 20 years, give up my cat, give up my furniture, although God knows how, and move into the men’s shelter, near my home. Simply stated according to these old hard liners, my thinking is stinking, and I should turn over my free will into the hands of someone else. This is where I should and would put myself into the hands of the men who worked there, some of whom were CAC’S who, I already knew from years ago, and who are presently in the 12 step organizations. This is one place where 12 step meetings took place once a week also. This I should do, despite the fact that I had attended meetings for over a year, and already had the “ever important necessary sponsor”, one who would instruct me in the 12 step way of life. This was not a good suggestion and one not based on common sense.

           Another slogan goes, whatever suggestions you don’t take you will pay for. It’s a benign sort of statement not to be taken literally or acted on literally. The counselors I had were adamant at the time, and in my community this subculture is large, a moneymaker, connected to each other, politically connected, and knows it all, because it believes it is the only treatment for addictive behavior. I refused to do this.

           I enjoyed my time over the Christmas Holiday in Rehab as much as possible. I had been in withdrawal fo a few years, because I was on so much and detoxified alone on the street, slowly. Before my release we, hospital staff and I worked out a discharge plan for me. We agreed, which is in direct conflict with the suggestion made to not go back to my apartment, and move into the shelter on the next block. There should have, with the 12 step literature, written the way it is, a place for me or anyone. I call them Bill W’s 12 opinions and 12 other opinions. There is a total of twenty four declarative statements, not unlike the, “Thou Shall Nots” of the ten commandments, but here you have, or the writers felt obligated to supply fifty pages of explanations for each declarative statement, in the twelve steps and twelve traditions, which should describe all twelve step behavior. Each step is nothing but 12 step loopholes, all of them. There was no reason for hospital connected, or12 step trouble. What came next after I grew away from the 12 steps was a version of mind control similar to the Manchurian Candidate, allegedly just because I had walked away, and in retaliation for the fact that the people involved from my building had been caught, by me in the act, then forgiven because I had come to believe that I deserved to be in Rehab, and almost greatful for it, and not a citizen with constitutional rights, and that they had acted illegally,and they were all connected to both the hospital and to acquaintances in the 12 steps, law enforcement, and my building.

THE ONLY FACT WAS, AND IS THAT I, REFUSED TO COOPERATE WITH THE RECOMMENDATIONS OF THIS PARTICULAR THERAPEUTIC ARM OF THE INDUSTRY.

THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF, A WELL CONNECTED NIGHTMARE, AND A SYSTEM OF THERAPEUTIC ABUSES, PERPETRATED BY THIS POLITICALLY WELL CONNECTED COMMUNITY, WHO ARE CONNECTED WITH EACH OTHER ALL OVER THE WORLD.

          To my amazement in this community, you had doctors on one hand, giving out pills, legally in over abundance, in their private practice, while on staff at outpatient drug Rehabs. Here they seem to bring both worlds together, and make a dollar at both ends. This is the lay of the land. Most know each other, and most are smart enough to be able to pick up a phone and communicate with each other . This is how networking is done, and how 12 steppers work; they use the phone constantly, and they come from all walks of life, and finally after a bit of time, enter all walks of life. Some have and are seriously disturbed, and never will resolve many of their problems, cultural or otherwise. Many are ex offenders.

           In this town the 12 step groups is, a subculture, and you run from meeting to meeting. As long as there were those, two white, hand bill type boards, with the 12 steps and 12 traditions, hanging on the wall. It basically didn’t make a difference to me, whose placards hung there AA or NA and for the first time I met hundreds of new people. Some of whom I became close with, because we shared the common pain of being stigmatized all our lives. For me though it wasn’t so much that. I had gotten so high for so long in public, I didn’t worry about public opinion too much. Maybe once in awhile, when even I could tell that our behavior crossed some boundaries of decency. It was only when I started to grow away from the meetings, and live my life, that the trouble began again. This time it was worse than the original mind bending therapeutic harassment perpetrated by my HYPNOTIST therapist, and members of my community, in my own building. This included post hypnotic suggestions of a sexual nature, which could be acted upon in the community, outside his door. Post hypnotic suggestion to be acted upon in the community. “When you hear a bell, you will cluck like a horny old chicken!” When I left the office the bells did go off! He had had trouble with hypnosis for awhile. But on my entrance to rehab during a relaxation class I noticed a similarity between the relaxation tape, and my home smoking cessation tape. The difference was the relaxation tape, was in a woman’s voice and had music to go along with it. I during the playing in class of that tape, was almost unconscious. The inputs continued after that, without my knowledge or consent.

       This time, it was long after, I was clean, which is another federal case making parameter, employees of a SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND RESEARCH UNIT, at a local Rehab and hospital started, along with some of my original harassers, even my own therapist, an ongoing scheme to, cause injury. It was then, and would soon lead to a larger, therapeutic community nightmare, which included the super, and maintenance help of the building in which I lived, again and, members sympathetic to the 12 step way of living, working in every government agency in this small town, which are in more than one way, connected to all the supportive services previously mentioned. It spread outward from there, even into the private sector, through the same people in the same supportive services in the form of brutal harassment, even to my job. This took on the form of personal harassment, by loss of prime territory on the job, some small verbal abuse and loss of customers and pay. The employee from the hospital followed me to the job, spoke with workers there who I have traced to the 12 steps in another town. I was harassed everyday as we went house to house. A lot of this probably passed from neighbor to neighbor. I went to the door in a neighborhood that I had never been in before, and heard as the doorbell was answered, in my own voice, my message from my home answering machine, on the house answering machine there. One woman with her toddler age son greeted me and her son turned to her, and stated, “Mommy he wants you to suck his penis?” This style harassment went on every day, at almost every location, on my route, and not just one incident a day.

            This harassment finally led to the alleged stealing of, or reading of my 4^th step life story, which was passed around for purposes, of an ongoing therapeutic harassment. These steps by 12 step standards, are never to be repeated, anywhere any time, by anyone. It was only later, I realized that this attitude and kinds of behavior, goes higher and deeper into the political network of, the county I lived in. It was even later that, I realized it goes even higher into the political system of New York State, and it always seems to take on the same forms of harassment, through the same lines ie: The medical community, politicians, and law enforcement, the social services systems, the Churches, which rent to AA, and NA, and affiliated 12 step programs; hospitals who give medical support to the poor addict with Medicaid, shelters who feed the homeless, and, are all involved with the supportive services systems surrounding the poor and addicted, not just the poor addicted; for profit. Some of these organizations receive matching Federal funding to run their businesses.

            During my early recovery, after I got out of drug rehab, 12 step oriented aftercare was recommended. It is common, and there are numbers of aftercare centers to chose from. I declined, to participate. I had continued going to meetings, called my sponsor daily, took phone numbers and used them, daily, in order to discuss what was going on in my existence. I was called in to DSS and told that I had to go into aftercare, or I’d lose funding, I chose an aftercare, which was recommended to me by the hospital, and went for an interview. I was asked what drugs I had used in the past, naturally I told the therapist. This was part of my record. I spoke about the drugs I abused with friends, given to another friend, by a local psychiatrist. I was asked to wait outside, and I noticed all phones in the secretary’s office get busy. The psychiatrist that I had mentioned during my interview, was head psychiatrist of this aftercare program, also. They turned me down that day, and a week later I lost my meager funding. A sanction, it’s called, for not attending this aftercare center. The DSS office received an attendance sheet from this aftercare center. I was sanctioned for my non-attendance. I explained that I had attended, it was they who turned me down. Now, eviction was coming my way, I was headed for the shelter, down the street. A day later I was declared because of, physical injuries, and illness disabled, and received funding from Social Security. The reason I was told that thisaftercare center wouldn’t take me was that, I had used pills and methadone. They only took Alcohol and Cocaine heads, which I knew to be a lie, having met other members of that aftercare. The hospital files sent to this aftercare center clearly show, a wrong diagnoses, which was never discussed with me anyway. This was about the first time I witnessed an actual connection between the HRA and a private concern like a drug Rehab. If I hadn’t been able to get to my files, I would have never known.

           If I hadn’t seen and recognized law enforcement officers from my area, going on to the campus at a college more that twenty miles away, in plain clothes I wouldn’t be able to even think about the politicians interference in my life, or that it at least had County input.

            Although these tactics , which were supposed to be kept in house and under the cover of anonyminity, as I have found out later, are used against anyone who goes against the 12 step movement, accepted way of life. There are those lines of law enforcement who are tired of dealing with the active addict, there are the unions whose pension funds have made investments into the real estate market, directly connected to housing and supportive services for the poor, and addicted. This is where immense amount of profits are generated. And of course to all 12 step nurses, nurses aids, doctors etc. The rationale being only that, AA and NA do go

           This style of harassment has been carried out miles from where it all started for me, in a new city, by the same means, by people who I might be able to literally, connect together, with my old home town services there, and maybe even to people with the 12 steps from the town where I grew up, on both ends. This is, the friends of BILL W., people I call 8^th traditionists. This allegedly leads to and through the many Social Services Systems, or Human Resources Systems and the groups it gives treatment contracts to, in part, to treat or house the addict whether active or not, this goes as high as the educational systems, and some unions which run through it all. Which means that through building maintenance unions harassment can take place and follow a person. Once the word gets out these people get vindictive.

           It was later that I was asked, during an interview, with a college campus head dean and his head of security, if one of my landlords had contracts to rent apartments to any type of recovery oriented businesses or groups. Allegedly they did, but I wasn't one of those apartments and had no knowledge of any deals between the management and any Recovery connected businesses. So again I'll ask in whose house, was this medical problem to be, taken care of? I didn't understand the questions or responses, and the advance knowledge this high ranking security officer at the local two year community college had, as we were discussing, my inquiries about threats made to me, by a staff member of my apartment building, right on campus, or the possibility of those facts being of major importance later on, and also how they received this information, here on campus, this harassment had continued by the same agents from my building, who I reported, as threatening me in the building back then, now allegedly coming after me on campus, standing in the library, on entrance testing day, screaming ,” I shall not let you destroy all these lives.” He would stand outside my apartment door, and say things like, he now thinks he wants to marry Mrs L., or any one of a dozen snide remarks. Now I was stuck with a college President knowing facts like, dates of my hospital drug rehab entrance, from people who had poked their nose through my records.

             Instead of this individuals entrance to my campus being reported to me, as I had asked, so that I might at least be on guard. Here, my ongoing harassment and runaround, by officials, continued, all stemming from that earlier harassment forcing me towards addiction treatment, in my building. Now on campus in a new area, it has happened again, in almost every class. The place appears to be so politically connected that almost everywhere I turned, I found a connection and a coverup. I even found members of my old home towns, both of them, connected to campus, and members of my immediate family also, and there seemed, at least until it’s co - oberated, input from them, used in more of a similar type of harassment. On one occasion I called an old acquaintance who was in the hospital dying from her body’s rejection of a transplanted liver

she let me know that, she knew these people had been going back over our records over twenty years..

          Now they were out in the open, almost all of them, but now, they were able to pass the message through friends, while letting me know, that the message is coming directly from them.

            A letter from that major hospital Rehab that I spoke about, stated that, the woman from the sleep deprivation unit, who allegedly, had worked with staff from my building on this ongoing harassment didn’t work for the hospital anymore, so it was impossible for them to do a thorough investigation. I had a meeting to bring in there on Saturday nights, so she had to be reported.

           Part of the crew who I worked with, would wait outside my physical rehab, where my doctor sent me for treatment of an injury, just to aggravate me, they stalked me on the job, and had definite connections to another 12 step group, plus the hospital drug Rehab. Another door seemed shut to me, by this community. Cooperation would not come easy, because of laws surrounding Doctor patient confidentiality. Apparently this extended to staff also. Allegedly, this woman still had an affiliation with that same hospital, and as I did my weekend commitment there I was repeatedly haranged by members of the organization I chaired the meeting for. I then was stopped by grounds security almost every time I appeared on the grounds. The police started to stop me on my way to noon meetings. On graduation day or the day before, a couple I knew slipped out of town under duress because of similar circumstances. I, having trouble breathing, ran to the hospital ER, only to find two police officers stationed outside my room, talking about some couple in a rented van being injured and killed as they crossed state lines. My machine readings went off the boards. This was just another day in the supportive services community. Members of some of the 12 step groups after one meeting in particular, drove all the way back to my apartment, from his home town, rang my bell, and started screaming obscenities over my intercom. It got so loud out in the street that one couple moved out of the building because of people standing out on the corner at night, in the dark screaming obscenities, about me and the situation. I wanted to take a cat from a litter of kittens in a local Bodega. We spoke about it, and I waited until the kittens were supposed to be weaned. I went in to the store to find the kittens gone. That night, I awoke to look out the window, over to the lighted store window where the cats used to be, Only that window was lit up, and someone screamed, “GET OUT”.

             I started to write about my experiences with them and the 12 steps, keeping my writings at home in my apartment My physical therapist was the wife of an alcohol councelor, who had once been a patient of my own therapist. On one occasion I arrived to hear another physical rehab therapist, there speaking on the telephone, as she spoke the words, nightmare of recovery were repeated, in front of me out loud. I freaked inside. Someone was in my apartment, and looking through my papers. There had been a direct order not to give me certain exercises, my therapist gave me the exact exercise, which a written order stated not to do, causing excruciating physical pain for weeks. She allowed others to come into the physical rehab area, to watch me while she put me through these tortuous paces. I couldn’t walk for more than approximately fifty yards, without having to stop. The pain had gotten so intense, that I discussed having a joint replacement, to alleviate the pain. The pain actually was from another part of my body passed through the nerve pathway going throughout the area. She sprayed some particularly noxious to me near my face, knowing because of my sever illness would be in pain, and she made it clear that I would be back to see them soon enough. One of those rehabilitative, physical therapists showed up at my college campus, I couldn’t say too much about it, people can go where ever they wish, but upon scrutinization of college staff records, I found the name of the doctor, who was head of the physical therapy rehab, that I have just spoken about.

               The legal - plan here is to, go after people who perpetrate, 12 step affiliated, abusive crimes, with law suits, now, based on your experiences, relating to any kinds of abuses, directed towards you by this political machine, CONNECTED NOT ONLY TO THE 12 STEPS, BUT TO, ALL THOSE SUPPORTIVE SERVICES AREAS ALSO, when connected to the 12 steps and your addiction. As this RECOVERY LEGAL PLAN website gets developed, the details,(in detail) will be exposed, with a certain amount of supportive documents, in order to let the buyer beware and to stop all the abuses. Our M.O. will be: criminal, and civil litigation when or if possible, with this being a forum to relate your experiences to and iD with. Those old promises of the 12 and 12 can be replaced, with more litigation against the recovery movement itself, and perhaps other areas and institutions involved in supportive services, and the individuals involved, who may be held liable. The fact that others know might afford you a little more peace and safety. As an older wiser acquaintance, who was conducive to, a more eyes open, approach to treatment of habituation said, this is for JUSTICE. It is one thing for me, and, or anyone else, to write, in a vague, or even in a detailed way about how some 12 stepper, or group of 12 steppers, connected through out the areas of public service type of employ, had a grievance against me, you or anyone else, or about how a police officer, pulled me over for a breathalyzer test, or even how some minor politicians, had it in for me, because some of my friends threatened to report an ongoing anal baby raping of a two year old, by a family member, of an AA mother, or that the same groups of people who went after that family because, they threatened to report it, came after me, by using the police to at play an active part in an emotional terrorization. because I was made aware of it too. It won't be enough to just say that some of these middle class girls in recovery were allegedly running a sex menu, type 1-800 number and did not want it revealed. It isn't enough to say that I had people from all these groups ringing my doorbell screaming obscenities at me all hours of the day and night, en mass. What is enough will be to, fill certain legal parameters in regards to these acts in order to be able to litigate successfully, and finally to be able to legislate into law, the means whereby this type of abusive behavior, en mass or even by one individual may be put to an end. To give the public more education, about it and a legal recourse.

 THE PROOF

         The substantiation of facts here and in a court of law, has become a necessity, in order to bring the professional ethics, and personal conduct of these individuals, to the public eye, in order to remove, once and for all, from the area of addiction treatment, all theraputic abuses, done under the guise of, their common good, which has become their group conscience, where I am concerned.

           For most of the general public, who believed the 12 step organizations exists as they have been portrayed for years, it isn’t enough to hear about, or read some words. The general public almost never does read about things of this nature. When cases are brought into court, it all goes on the shelf or in the archives of some courthouse. Most of the time people are kept uninformed about tragic events connected with these 12step organizations, such as the Cox case in New York State. Because it brings too much adverse publicity, andWEB sites like this are usually reserved for persons in search of another outlet, to speak out about their own therapeutic abuses. If crime is committed in the rooms of the 12 steps by 12 steppers, and it makes the newspapers, the names of the 12 step groups these people attend, is never mentioned. In certain areas of the system when people die, it isn’t even noticed. It now has become important for the general public to know that these abuses are real, and usually do, go unnoticed, and when these abuses are discovered, they are sometimes very difficult to substantiate. This is why nothing gets done. People are injured permanently in this manner.

Here in NY, in Federal Court, some of the 12 step groups have been declared religious in nature , and that in NY State, you may not be court mandated anymore, to a 12 step organization. It isn’t enough to read how, in time over the years, they, the whole therapeautic community, and the political process which surrounds them has grown corrupt, because this makes new 12 steppers at least intent on being clean and sober, and a snookered taxpaying public, very irate. After all, the public relations departments of these groups, always, has been shown in the media as giving a helping hand to the suffering and needy. So even if, you are not from Missouri, I will have to take you by the hand and show you….........

……........ Exactly, as much as the law will allow, so as not to undermine any litigation processes, which might be taking place, picture by picture, step by step, document by document, what all these words mean.

I mean to, try to define by picture in document form, where the public's tax money goes, in relation to the Recovery Movement, and how these coercive methods as defined, really take place. This mob mentality, led to house break ins, to illegal electronic surveillance, stalking, harassment, and the possible use of, illegal electronic subliminal direction. When I say this I mean that, even if just once a subliminal post hypnotic suggestion was used by an incompetent therapist, it would lead anyone right into a courtroom.